Aidonian's blog

It’s the last month of 2023 and a lot has happened in this year. I have new and interesting people, got into contact with an old friend whom I haven’t spoken in years. Which was great because she was an amazing person. I’m happy for her that she found someone and started her own business which is something she always wanted to do. A close friend of mine gave birth to another boy. Which surprised me because she didn’t told me she was pregnant. From August to July this year I wasn’t able to run because I was doing it wrong apparently. I jogged while breathing through my mouth instead of nose. Breathing through my nose was harder to do but now I’m used to it. It was because breathing through my mouth that I got i.g. Problems which I don’t have now. This has caused me to not watch what I’m eating and gain some weight. In August this year I weighed around 89 kg which is too much for someone who is 1m68 tall. Anyone who knows me and still asks if I’m dating someone, doesn’t want to admit it or is a bit naive to think that I will be able to date. While some think it’s because I want to date beautiful women, the reality is something else. While it’s perfectly ok to state that I shouldn’t be able to date models, it doesn’t mean that I should settle for someone I don’t find attractive at all. The real reason why I’m still single is that I’m terrible at the while dating thing. The tragedy is that while I wanted a relationship, a family, I will not never get it.

Found a personal trainer who helps me get ready to run 21 km with a program to strengthen my muscles while my running coach helps me with reaching my goal of 21 km. I already signed up for the Sofico Marathon Ghent for next year in march but not for 21 km but for 10 km. I want to be able to run it and not for the second time. I want to have it done several times in training before I participate in a contest.

Finding out that your mother is terminally ill is bad news no matter what. It really sucks. Especially since she doesn’t wanted to do anything about it. Before February, she knew something was wrong but didn’t want my brother and me to know. Which is the same thing her mother did 28 years ago. With the exception that my father knew but couldn’t tell us. My grandfather didn’t knew and was shocked and horrified to find out what happened to his wife when they brought him the news that she was terminally ill.

Concerning Russian language. I’m still somewhat stuck at A2 level and really need to focus on improving my vocabulary while my teacher teaches me grammar and correct way to speak it and write it. I’m thankful for her patience with me because it has gone slow but in this it’s better to go slow than fast. The problem lies with the fact that I’m busy with various things that I don’t find enough time to focus on improving my vocabulary. For December and January and beyond I need to focus on improving my vocabulary and learn new words otherwise it will be slower than turtle speed. Grammar will follow. Normally I wanted to participate in the B1 exam for Russian language but my teacher says I’m not ready for it so I will wait until til she says I’m ready to participate in it. If I participate, I want to be able to succeed and not fail.

This summer I signed up for a CrossFit class which was really fun to do but I don’t have the time for it. With my training for running 21 km, jogging 3x a week, learning Russian, I barely even have time to participate in Krav Maga or MSA again. I loved doing that. But I have a hard time creating a schedule for myself to include all those types of trainings. Which kind of annoys me because I want to do it, but I don’t find the time for it.